I'm saying something that many of you already know.
Lightening speed....
Throughout life.
As a child - playing outdoors. All of my friends. Riding our bikes down the road.. crunching gravel. laughter - even a little fun racing. Dusk setting in. Lightening speed. Reaching the turn in the road, peddling so fast with youthful legs - lightening speed.
Hearing Mama, or maybe granddaddy call your name - time to go inside.
Lightening speed since the fun began.
Then - oh gosh, teenage years. For me - nothing was lightening speed.
Sunday dinners - with my parents - slow motion
After school. Chores. Or board games with my mother. Slow motion.
But then getting out with friends. Sleep overs. Carnivals. Concerts. Laughter.
Lightening speed.
You do realize I'm going to continue through my life writing like this. Right?
The twenties came. And so did the babies. Then toddlers. Then little children. Preteens, Teenagers, young adults and then friends.
That scoops up the years - lightening spreed til the fifties for me. And a come to terms with a empty nest. A failed marriage. Lines on my face, scars in my heart.
Lightening speed.
At 62 years old.
I am single. I live alone in a place that only my hard work and my finances give to me. I make dinner for myself. I watch what I want on TV. I listen to music, inspiring videos, podcasts. I bask in my cozy clutter. And I get lonely. Terribly so. But its not worth a risk anymore to disturb my peace. To risk having my heart hurt. My soul tremble. Those years. Yes, you guessed it. Lightening speed.
My family - all the time I get to spend with them, I will. My little granddaughters. Giving them terrific memories of their Nana I sure hope.
Write... Crochet... Read... smile.
A simple life. Now a quiet life. No one to hold me tight. No one to wake up to. No one to fall asleep content and safe in their arms.
That was another life.
That was another season.
It came and it left with lightening speed.
Every moment matters. Every one of them.
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